I'm not sure if that is a suprise or not. All my ability to read people or trust anything seems to be failing me.
The flight is a very unique an slightly odd way to reference things! Certainly new to me
That's not messed up at all.. I feel an ease just being close to her.. I don't even need to look to tell she's moved next to me or closer.. I loved when she did that..
Every so often.. usually when I was being sour faced π she'd all of a sudden be right next to me.. I could feel her warmth just like she wanted me in her presence.. I don't know if she ever knew how much I loved those moments
When I could tell.. it was just for me.. damn that makes me feel a pang of.. hope maybe, that I've not felt in a good week or so..
Weirdly even the few times we got in each others way.. we never collided. We sorta danced around each other like we preemptively read each others movements.. that kinda chemistry.. thats rare.. makes any physical interaction, even the most minor feel like theres a deep connection, I loved it
Thought you'd like the joincidence :) and I'm not smiling much.. but I'm trying!
And what's 26 in reference to? If you don't mind me asking :)
I don't know. I was in overdrive for a while because I thought I'd figured something out.. things here.. that random conversation I've been having.. something still felt off..
But I honestly don't understand it, the things I was leaning on aren't there anymore an I just don't know what to do think or do. I don't mind waiting, when I have something to look forward to. Seeing her used to be that.. even in no romantic way just being able to hear her talk.. little things she did while working.. gave me an odd comfort that I've almost forgotten the feel of π
I think I've just been wrong about everything. Talking to myself maybe the entire time, or just being made a joke out of. I don't believe she would do that, but whose to say she hasn't told a friend about me an they're doing it for entertainment? I can't ask, prove or do anything
Sorry I don't mean to be cryptic, but you can surely see, I don't feel like I have any control over my life. My head is SCREAMING at me to stop. My heart just won't. I don't know how to cope with both of those things escalating
Don't worry your title of top smartarse (it is arse by the way, not ass) is still solidly intact :)
Probably not a surprise, but I am not one to follow the latest trends⦠so, that is a no for friends too.
The flight β¦ it just came to me. I was thinking of ways to get in his arms. I completely talk about it A LOT!!! It was amazingβ¦ this is going to sound incredibly stupid, but I could feel our hearts. It was as though this empty piece was connected. Completely messed up thinking, I knowβ¦ that is the best I can do at explaining itβ¦ who wouldnβt want back. I have been trying for a looonnnggg time!!!
Hym "Look at what you're doing to me right now. I got people referencing every message. I don't even know what to call it. How the fuck am I supposed to live like this without any recourse? I got people catching me in the street. And all because you're taking the other side on a contentious topic. You don't like the shit that I've said. You don't care. You don't care. Why are you doing that? Do you not have a choice. Why make that choice? Why listen of you're just going to ignore me? It's not even that I want kids to be harmed but it's like what the fuck is a guy like me supposed to do? Seriously. And don't give me some bullshit 'just work super duper hard bro!' You know that's not what I'm talking about! It's insane. What you're doing here is insane. What am I supposed to do about this at a personal level. 'Nothing. Just do nothing. Even doing nothing elicits the same response. You continue to do the thing that you're doing. This isn't a thing that other people are dealing with. What am I supposed to do? And I'm right. I'm also right. That's the worst part of all this. I made all these claims and exactly what I said would happen has happened exactly the way I said it would and I'm paying the price somehow. How is a guy supposed to deal with this?"
Guy 1: Dude lets search for the word βlookβ on urban dictionary!
Guy 2: You donβt get outside enough. Stop doing dumb shit and get laid you fuckin virgin
Guy 1: ....would you rather search for boobs?