Loneliness is like the 5 stages of grief. That's how it feels: Denial Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance. Only instead of getting better as you go through stages you get worse.
Stage 1: โItโs just a phaseโ โSomeone is going to talk to me.โ โEverybody goes through a rough patch.โ
Imagine I were lonely for instance. I'd start looking for someone to blame in my anger. I blam my parents for switching schools; thatโs the reason I never made a friend. I blame cell phones for corrupting todays values but soon Stage 3: โIf I just, spent some more time outside I would be more socialโ โIf I just joined some group activities - took some classes, everybody would naturally be palsโ โIf I just go up to someone and start a conversationโฆโ It may take a while but I'll try everything โWhat if I just, stand in the middle of a field and yell โIโm lonely somebody help me!โโ
Most people go through depression now and then; imagine yourself depressed in utter sadness. Now imagine that with no shoulder to cry on; no one to help you get through your sorrow And no one to blame. However depression is not the worst stage. Because once you accept the fact that you will be lonely forever and thereโs nothing you can or should do about it then there is no escaping it. In any other stage someone could pull you out of that bottomless pit of despair but, acceptance is brutal. A life here would be boring pursuits of going from point A to point B, and watching my favorite T.V. shows.
Having a tiny little mental hole inside of you that keeps you from being happy. You can try to fill that empty spot with rainbows and happy thoughts... but happiness will almost always keep leaking out of that hole. Worst of all, the longer you have that hole, the bigger it seems to get. Stupid hole...
"Loneliness is the worst pain in this world. It constantly eats away the person's heart, and can cause the person to hate, to feel enraged--the same rage and hate that can cause one person to kill another. It is like a wound of the heart; the type of wounds that cannot go away with a kiss or a hug. The only thing that can make this great pain go away is love and compassion, another human heart to pull them out of this hell."- Princess Diana